A Dairy of Mystism..........................

A Dairy of Mystism..........................

"Siddhi just couldn't thank God enough for the professional break she had got and she did it on her own.She was a bit sceptical though her close buddies and her family assured her she would get through .....and they were right.She could do it.She couldn't believe it..

"You can be anything you want"told her instinct.....suddenly she didn't care at all that she had lost....though she hid her pain with a smile.This is the best present she got herself a much awaited "coporate job" on her birthday but at the same time she had a personal crisis -"break-up" with the man she loved.She broke up with him for his non-commitment for a future.Though his mature side wanted a mere friendship ,but she decided to just take a break from him (for the sake that she feels she can't be friends with him).

She celebrated her birthday with her close buddies -Gayathri,Niel,Sanjay & her family that night and thanked God again profusely before she went upto bed that night and stood in her small room,thinking about it,she thought of Sachin and how proud he would have been of her,if he was with her.If things had been different,they would have been together witnessing her success.They would have been celebrating their first anniversary of being with each other.But life hadn't worked out the way she wanted.He hadn't been willing to fight for it.He had been too afraid to cross the bridge into another life with her.And suddenly she knew what he had meant when he said how strong she was.(Suddenly a flash from the past when she sat with Sachin & Gayathri at a open restaurant when they where enjoying a evening snack and suddenly Sachin's out of the topic discussion on Relationship & Marriage confused her "Not neccessary all relationship ends up in Marriage"he had said.....then). Because therein lay the difference between them. She was willing to cross the bridge,to fight for anyone,or anything.she had been willing to be there for him,but no matter how much she loved him,he just couldn't do it.(She had made it clear numerable times with him that she was not looking for a passing phase relationship with him and he questioned back asking did she feel he was not serious?)He had been a gentleman and she knew she would never again love anyone as she loved him.

But whatever he had been,and however much he had loved her,he hadn't loved her enough to fight for it.He had turned back at the last minute,he had given it all up,and she had lost everything.(He ignored the serious discussion always whenever she asked about their future togther,after all whats wrong if she wanted to discuss and everytime he accused her of being emotional & sentimental.Finally around her birthday he told her plainly that he wanted an arranged marriage & wished to marry a girl of his parents choice .....now all the memory crambled before her of how she had been there for him when he was a failure.....how she handled all blame & hate from her family when they got to know about her relationship with Sachin....but she never complained or showed her helplessness to him -cause she was strong and handled everything with courage) And now little by little,she had to start everything.......ALONE(she had told him once during when they were together that she hates being alone...she fears.....being alone,and he had told her the same....and promised to be with her always......)She didn't hate him for it,but she was still very sad and thought she probably always would be,whenever she thought about him.And that one question forever lingering her "Why couldn't he think about his families wish & choices before getting into it all?(coz you don't need to ask for your parents permission before getting into a relationship :-) )



And as she layed across the bed looking outside the window away at the dark clear sky,she could see his face in her mind's eye so clearly,she could almost touch him,the big naughty smile,those eyes......the way he made her feel when they were togther.It made her heart ache thinking about him.But as much as she loved him,she knew something else now.She was a survivor.He had abondoned her,and she didn't die.And for the first time in her life,she was excited about what life had stored for her,and she wasn't frightened.......that she can live the rest of her life ALONE with a Smile that hides everything................:-)


P.S :
She never stopped Loving him....just stopped Showing.........................






Luv & Regards,
Divz

Allow Your Own Inner Light to Guide You......

Well let me be frank enough,that my next piece of thought is from an article which i had read from somewhere.At present I am going through a rough phase in my life wherein this piece has guided me through its simple thinking and hope it helps all those people who are looking for sme sort of answers in life....

Allow Your Own Inner Light to Guide You......

There comes a time when you must stand alone.You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams.You must be willing to make sacrifices.You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved.Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged.There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities.Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by.Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life.Don't stand in someone else's shadow when it's your sunlight that should lead the way......

Rgds,

Divz.

Just it let it go………………

Life is not about possessing and clutching on to things.The reason why people hang on to certain things, they don’t really want is because they had invested something into those things,
Some memory, some personal link, some meaning, some sort of Obligation to the gifter to treasure it always! And until they change their attitude, they will remain tied to their
things as if by an umbilical cord! It is a very positive thing to value anything that one encounters. But somehow, they must sever the attachment to that which they
Value.Have you ever been in love with someone that didn’t return your
Feelings? You didn’t love them any less because you could not
Have them. And, when all was said and done and later analyzed ,you might even have appreciated that the two of you never did get togther.You were able to appreciated them from afar,And hold that endearment pristine, and perhaps even care about them more, at a distance.Life is not about possessing, attaining and holding in your Clutches. It is about savouring, using all your senses fully to take in all the beautiful, wonderful things that you can.

Once you have had your fill of that bright yellow flower Of enjoyment, you can have the thrill of blowing away those wisps of a dandelion, and watch them float along the wind, trusting that wherever they land, is precisely where they are meant to be.If you have fully appreciated everything that has come your Way, then you have absolutely no reason to require it any more. Perhaps ones dismay at giving things away now truly Valued it in the first place. By giving it away now, it means that they will never have that knowledge of fully experiencing that thing. And so ,they feel a sense of loss because they never fully appreciated it When you love and appreciate something and someone fully You love it regardless of whether it is in your sight or not.We can never truly possess anything-ashes to ashes.We can appreciate things we do not own just as much as We love what, what we have in our house.The way to letting go of stuff is not by forming some kind Of attitude of worthlessness to it .the way to let go and not feel attached any longer is by treasuring the time you had With it, knowing that it is always in your heart, and there It remains, for eternity. It, too has its own life, its own Journey, its own path of evolvement. Trust that it will,Like a child who has grown up, make its own way through Life, just as it should........

Hello..

Hi everyone.....
After a long thought....Am here....in d world of sharing your thoughts......
dats all for now....will take some time to understand the whole system.....

Rgds,

Divz...